Background note: I always feel like dreams are so vivid and memorable until literally (or at least it feels like) the second before I wake up, and then suddenly as soon as I'm awake everything just flies from my mind and only certain parts remain. It's frekaing annoying when I wanna actually remember what it was about cos sometimes....it's hard to express why I felt a certain way about a dream when I can barely remember what it was about to begin with lol. I guess unlike E, who I remember as the most prominent example of someone who can remember dreams in detail, the things I'm left with most strongly after a dream are the emotions I felt during it, rather than the events or people.
But yeah what I wanted to say is actually not that long. So I had a few dreams last night, 3 specific ones I can remember, but only the first one I remember the most of.
The first one I remember was about meeting Yiruma at World Square (which in real life I had really wanted to do but missed out on a week or 2 ago). I remember being coincidentally there for some reason (not to see him) on like what I assume to be the last day/time/minute he was there. And he was packing up already, finished performing (I missed it), and I looked over from whatever I was doing (I don't remember) and I walked up to him and asked him if he could sign a CD for me. At first I remember not even recognising him (which I felt guilty for) and when I looked at his face properly it was very stern and I was scared he would pull a snobby celebrity response on me and just ignore me, but then he did write one up, and I even asked him to make it out to D as well (I don't remember if he did...he may have declined that one LOL). But yeah he wrote something, made a mistake and wrote another one. He wrote a message that went along some inspirational line like "To Bec, something something something never give up on your dreams no matter what anyone says to you and don't let other people beat you down something something like that". (LOL It was a lot more emotional and good-sounding at the time, whatever he actually wrote). And it was really nice. Then I met up with D afterwards and showed him...and something happened while I was with D but I don't remember what herp derp.
The second dream...all I remember was something about gelato at a gelato stand in the middle of a shopping centre. All I remember is staring at the flavours through the glass lol. Again this was probably a lot more meaningful and eventful at the time, but memory blank.
The last dream I don't remember much from either, but left the strongest emotional imprint. It had something to do with while I was on the train home (It was a tin can). I was apparently about to leave for either a very long time or forever, and it was my last night here. I don't remember who I was with but that person was trying to persuade me not to go home and just hang out with more important people I wouldn't see again on my last night. I remember them degrading and insulting my family in some way and I got very angry and shouted emotionally back at them, listing each of my family members and why I loved them and they were amazing. I remember each time I said one and image of that person came to mind very vividly. As I got off the train and left that person, I remember my family members were all on the dark platform waiting for me, and I ran to them and cried. At this moment I woke up crying, tears streaming down into my pillow. Even the memory of waking up and the feeling of crying feels distant now and I'm not even sure if I was at the time cos I think I fell back asleep afterwards. But I'm pretty sure I did. It's almost scary that something that exists within my mind while I'm asleep and unconscious (I feel like I've made some kind of psychology-related mistake there derp) could prompt me to wake up so emotionally, but yeah.
Anyway, I just wanted to write that down somewhere before the memory of it completely fades, cos all I told D was that I had a weird dream and I woke up crying lol. But yes.
Also (unrelated) I've pretty much given up on being able to write my essay tonight so I'm just going to finish annotating my reading, write up thoughts and ideas/structure for my essay, and also read through the psych material for the report which is also due on Tuesday HERP DERP. OMG and I havn't even started on my geki report/script tidyup or my JR Sensei report. -sigh- fml. So much for a productive weekend.
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