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Again, I've gone into a phase where I keep starting to write posts but after letting the feelings subside don't want to publish the half-finished post anymore.

A suitable title also fails to come as well.

Sitting at the studio right now, on the day of DS5. I'm very...-insert emotion that I can't describe- right now. To say tired would be oversimplifying it, to say upset would be victimising myself, to say pissed would be overstating how much I care.

I just really don't want to be here right now.

**If you're not going to help when you could be, then go home, or somewhere else. Don't sit here and complain about how crap the organisation is or how you're doing nothing.

note: I just noticed something, I smile in this really fake way when I'm trying to hide something or the fact I'm upset while trying to be nice and normal to people (especially unknowing people). Like I don't smile normally, instead smiling in a very straight line lol. and I squint my eyes. Or I close my eyes a lot. Whut, probs doesnt even make sense.

It was bad enough for Mark to notice even though we spoke to each other for only a minute or so. He got me a happy hippo cos apparently I looked like I needed one... -tears up-. And then when moving drink it got squished in my jacket pocket T_T But he gave me another one (without knowing about the squished one, I took that out after) cos he said I should have another one. And Terry said I look sick too. -sigh- I hate that I'm not subtle when I'm...'upset'.

I also just let out an exasperated scream and it hurt my throat...My voice is a bit gone from yesterday and now it hurts to talk too loudly.

You're having fun spiting me.

Anyway, ceebs continuing this. whatevs.